You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning completely rested and ready to start your day?
ya... me neither!
i know it has happened before,
however it hasn't been in the past 2 years.
and i'm pretty sure it probably wont happen for a good 10-15 more, maybe longer.
however, despite the fact that sleep has eluded me,
i'm required to do more, love more, smile more, fix more, help more
teach more, think more and be more.
then go to bed at night
wake up, 2-3-4 times before the sun comes up,
... and "be more" again!
when you go thru the first 8 years of marriage without kids,
you accidentally become very, for lack of a better word, selfish my friends.
and then you go and bring one or two more little humans into the mix and the reality is
there is no room for you in your own life anymore.
and i'd like to say that it's completely ok, but the truth is you miss "me time" you miss going to a movie on a whim, or deciding to go to the grocery store, make a list, get a whole basket full of groceries and be back home watching the latest episode of the bachelor all in about 2 hours.
instead, you barely get out the door in 2 hours and you're lucky if you remembered to brush your teeth.
Yes, i miss me time, maybe thats not something moms should say out loud, maybe i shouldn't let on that sometimes i don't want to "be more", i just want to be me.
but then something like your big babe, snuggles up to the little babe and wants to give him a butterfly kiss, or wants to share his prized blankie with his little brother.
and you know how very important that blankie is and if he is willing to share that,
well then you better take a note out of your 2 year olds book,
and step up your game.
so you can sleep more later
because today you have to "be more".
and "being more" just so happens to be what you've always dreamed of.
